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August 2009
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meldod_o [userpic]

So much for well laid plans. Steve went out tonight, so no chance for me to get out. Mikey's phone's still off/dead, so no hanging out with him. I'm officially alone. Mom texted Steve about not leaving me alone. I'm not sure how to feel about that. I mean, he's not my keeper for God's sake, he has his own life. I just wish I had one friend I could rely on. Why do I always end up alone? Steve's had the same friends for forever, and Veronica's got crappy friends, but friends nonetheless. I don't have any friends at all. I've tried to reach out, I really have. But no one ever gets back to me. No one cares one way or another what happens to me. Not even my family. Sometimes I wonder why I even bother. Why do I even try? There's no point. Who in this world cares if I get out of bed in the morning? I can't think of one person who would care even a little. How did I get to this point? How did Iget to the point where no one cared about me? Why do I have to be alone? Why does every friendship I have just dissolve? Disappear into thin air. Does anyone think of me? Does anyone miss me at all? Does anyone ever want to be my friend anymore? Have I alienated every person I've ever met? Why am I even here? Do I exist to be alone? What's someone suppose to do when no one cares anymore? Did anyone ever care? Was I just some pity case? I just want the pain to go away. I don't wanna be alone anymore. I just want someone to care about me. To want to be there for me. ZBut does anyone want to be around me? Probably not.

Current Mood: depresseddepressed

I miss you. I was just thinking about you the other day and wondering what you were doing these days. I wish we could hang out, but I'm all the way over here, and you're all the way over there. :(

Thanks hun. That's something for some reason, I really needed. Indeed, the fact that there are numerous states between us would hurt our chances at hanging out. I really hope you're doing well, and I hope you know how happy I am for you and John. Honestly, I don't know of two people better matched then you two. I hope things are well in MO!